we are broken.

so this is going to be a depressing post but I just have to write about my experience last night.

it was like 2.30am and kassie, katie, heath and I were riding the el back home. apparently it was prom night for some school and a group of kids had plans for taco bell before going home. they were all pretty wasted and crowded the el for the first few stops before they decided to get off. two young girls were sitting in front of me and their two friends were across the el from them. one of the girls in front of me was wiping her eyes and I caught on that she was pretty upset and her friend next to her was trying to comfort her. when the taco bell stop came everyone hurried to get off and the two girls went to as well... then the girl who was crying said she just wanted to go home. she looked so defeated, her head hung low and it was really something like out of a movie because she was crying so silently looking out the window of the train while her friend had her head on her shoulder trying to comfort her. it was so early in the morning no one was really talking and the el is always so loud...

thennnn

this MEAN girl who was sitting across the aisle from the other girls started PUNCHING her in the leg and saying "wake the f up, you're f'ing sleepy" ... the girl told her to stop... she didn't. she kept cussing at her. she called her a pussy about five times... the girl kept telling her to stop but eventually she just gave up. I wanted to help her... and I should have... I suck so bad sometimes at doing the right thing. I wanted to grab that girl and tell her how she is SCREWING up someones life for years and years by abusing her physically AND emotionally. This world is so screwed up sometimes. People can be so mean.

It reminded me of my most favorite song ever...

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

—Hayley Williams

I know I fall short of this and I am always working on it... but just remember the power of your words and actions... one sentence that comes flying out of my mouth, our mouth, has the potential to screw up someone elses life for years...

be nice to everyone.

--kls